The older I get, the more I think about my mortality and what kind of legacy I will be leaving. I think that ties into the issues I’ve been having lately…so much to do and so little time to do it. Sorting the important stuff from the crap. What do I NEED to get done while I’m here, both for myself and for my family?
How will I be remembered? What will my legacy be?
I can guarantee you I will not be remembered for my housekeeping skills. My house is clean enough to be healthy, (barely) but messy enough to be happy. I will not be remembered for having drawers with all my underwear folded. Or keeping my car spotless inside and out. I will not be remembered for leaving the house with all my lists and my phone and my grocery bags (in fact, if I ever left without having to come back at least once for a forgotten item, someone would take my temperature!)
So what will my friends and family remember?
I hope they will remember a passionate woman who knew how to have fun. Who loved deeply. Who was loyal and put their needs ahead of her own. A woman who would rather spend time creating beauty than chasing dust bunnies. A woman who adored her children and grandchildren. A woman who loved her husband beyond reason. Maybe even the woman who opened a tiny little store and turned it into something that mattered to the community.
That’s not a very well-defined legacy, and it is certainly not earth-shattering. I’ve got time to make it more. But I don’t know yet what more I want it to be. It’s worth considering. Even if I am fortunate enough to live what would be considered a long life, I’m in roughly the last quarter of it.
I want to enjoy my life, enjoy my family and enjoy my friends. I want to absorb as much as I can of the beauty around me. I want to use my gifts for good. I want very much to come to end of my life having used up every bit of my talents, and regretting as little as possible.
I’m not going to dwell on it. None of us know how much time we have hear on earth. But I’m going to try to run my decisions through the filter of how they fit into what I want my legacy to be. So far I haven’t figured out exactly how my art fits into it.
I’ve got a lot more thinking to do on this subject.
Do you ever think about your legacy? Do you know what you want it to be? I’d be curious to know if this is something only us older folks thinks of, or do you youngin’s think about it too?